I flopped...but I will succeed.

I utterly and completely flopped! My goal was to give up sweets for 30 days and after 3 days I succumbed to a vegan red velvet cupcake. The cupcake looked at me, winked, and said, "Eat me!" So what did I do, listen and eat it. Shame on me, but the sweetness was bliss. If that wasn't the worst part, my teaching assistant brought me a Coke Zero! Are you kidding me? It stared me down all day at work. I brought it home and put it in the fridge. Forgot about it and when I opened the fridge.....WHAM! A beautiful cold Coke Zero. This time it extended it's hand and said just one sip. Like an alcoholic with a drink of Jack Daniels, one sip became one guzzle. After my one guzzle the mentality of oh well, I failed set in, I continued to chug it like a frat boy drinking beer. It was gone and before I knew it the 20oz bottle of Coke Zero was swishing in my stomach like the Pacific Ocean. I got a high five from the bottle and a slap on my ass for giving in to temptation.

I decided that going cold turkey did not agree with me. There is a reason why I am eating these sweets and soda, I need to find that reason. Number #35 on my list was to read "Crazy Sexy Diet" by Kris Carr. Great book and lots of insight, finished it in a couple days. In the book there is a 21 day cleanse. This process isn't just about the eating but dealing with the emotional part of eating as well. After reading this book there are things I'd like to explore, and things I think are just not me. I don't think I'll ever eat 100% raw vegan, but I'm all for nixing sugar for 21 days and doing it in a healthier format than cold turkey. I'm hardcore, but right now between teaching an autism class and trying to quit sweets and soda I need guidance. This book provided that for me and as of Monday July 18th, 2011 I am starting my cleanse. I am going to start with a free mind, free spirit, and a new perspective on myself. I'm very mean to myself and deserve a little kindness. I'm not where I want to be physically AND emotionally and I think this cleanse will help.

Three cheers for sweet revenge on sugar and Coke Zero! As of Monday the 18th of July 2011 I will be embarking on my journey to cleanse my mind, body, and spirit. I will succeed!